I’m just realizing how truly amazing it is to be single and how content I feel. I really think I might be single forever. Never again will I be controlled by someone. I don’t know how being attached could improve my life more than how it is currently. I was in an unhealthy situation (aka marriage) for 7 years and am so thankful and happy to be free and independent again. That’s something that ended almost three years ago now and I rarely think about it. Onwards and upwards.
Especially right now with my current goals and training, I don’t make time for anyone. Nor do I want to. I have tunnel vision with my upcoming ultramarathon, as I should. I’m pretty happy with being self-involved. Talking with someone the other day and he said something about “Oh you’re just selfish right now.” ๐๐คฃ Fucking rights I am! There is nothing wrong with self-care and looking after yourself. If I don’t look after myself, there is certainly no one else who would or could – that’s the same with anyone, attached or not. I think too many people forget to prioritize self-care. I am so happy to be able to focus on getting healthier, stronger and more fit. I am also relieved to be healing from what I’ve been through and to be truly content and satisfied in my own company. I’m feeling happier and healthier than ever.
Back to the ultramarathon training: It’s quite the undertaking with lots of unknown and fear involved. I feel so content and happy pursuing my passion and working towards my goal. I am fiercely independent and I love it. It’s such a relief to do whatever I want and answer to no one. I am so thankful to be secure financially and not “need” to be with someone else in order to live the lifestyle that I want and love. I’ve never felt this secure and content before and it’s truly an amazing feeling. 2017 is the best year of my life so far. I have so many amazing plans coming up and so much to look forward to. ๐๐๐ผโโ๏ธ๐ด๐ผโโ๏ธโจ